It's the close of another year and as usual, I'm sitting here analyzing how 2006 compared with past years. After careful consideration (all 5 minutes of it) I've gotta tell you, this year hasn't been half bad. This year I've somehow managed to graduate law school, pass the bar, clean up some major emotional confusion, and get my first "real" job. For the first time I really feel like I've come into my own. Yes, I've had some minor setbacks and granted I'm still living at home with mommy and daddy but hey, if that's the worst of my problems then I've got it made.
Looking back on things, especially at how miserable I was for the most part of 2005, I can't help but realize that all the torment and angst that I experienced was self-imposed. Shit happened I'll admit, but the way I handled certain situations was juvenile at best. Mentally I was unprepared and immature and I think that of all my accomplishments this year the one that I'm the most thankful for and most appreciate is the fact that I've emotionally grown up. I've learned that if someone leaves my world it's not the end of life as I know it. If someone hurts me it's up to me to choose how I react. Someone else's choice of actions does not necessarily have to affect me unless I choose to let it. I choose my actions based on what I know to be the right thing, not what I think will make the most people happy. It is perfectly acceptable to say "no" to people.
I think that if 2005 represented my ultimate slump, 2006 marks my year of ultimate independence and growth. Having said all that, I'm going to celebrate this fantastic year by getting fantastically drunk. Be safe everyone!
My last New Year's eve post:
Saturday, December 31, 2005
Happy New Year
Current Mood: disappointed
The way I look at it, it can only get better. 2005 was a piece of shit.
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I'm glad to hear you've resolved any past issues that were holding you back.
I'm so proud of you - not just for your emotional breakthrough (which is significant) but all you've accomplished academically and professionally.
And hey, considering the student loan debt you may be facing, it makes PERFECT SENSE to live w/ your parents until you can whiddle away at some of that.
Have a great new years eve! You deserve everything your heart wishes for.
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